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| And I don't try for it anymore.
I can't believe I made it so many months and messed it up on someone I used to love.
or that I don't love you anymore, that we touch and I don't feel it at all.
I messed it up and it wasn't worth it and yet I can't muster up enough regret.
The regret I do feel comes with the aching on the parts of my body.
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| is horrendous with emotion.
I really am quite convinced it doesn't exist when we're at a distance.
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| It clearly hasn't.
I need new friends. Everyone has separated and grown apart and created new friendships.
I miss the ones that used to be edge. Making their own fun. When I come home from a college of mindless drones playing vapid games I don't want to see you partaking in the same things.
Oh, beer pong, why can't I escape you.
if the night ends with her puking in her bed and you carrying her to the bathroom, doesn't that make you sad?
or maybe you can only get along if you're both drunk
i don't want to have to beg and plead to have a life while i'm here and i don't want to have to succumb to hanging out with people that don't interest me
i should have stayed in raleigh or I should have stayed in asheville
the grass is always greener, isn't it?
also, it's sad i'm afraid to type this all in my tumblr and have to resort back to my trusty xanga
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| will be the death of me.
I think it's really dumb to waste your time being so...tied down to someone whom is clearly not your soulmate.
Even if you love them.
And yes, you love them.
But we're so young, and even if we weren't I don't believe you're destined to be with one person.
I think we're meant to try people out.
But society begs to differ.
I wish you'd just let us apart for the summer. yes i'd be jealous, but this is holding me back.
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| "sometimes I just want to be like, hey, are you DTF? just be like honestly, I don't want any of the emotional stuff."
what a prize cunt.
of course you say that while I'm there and of course you say that because I told you i'd found something better that I actually wanted to date.
offfff course.
it's really confusing how I hate the concept of my boy doing drugs but I think the things he did that were so opposite of me that originally attracted me to him.
and of course he's hanging with his "best friend" that he spend the summer doing "mad illegal shit" with and thus I probably will barely talk to him the rest of the evening...
go figure.
I don't stay up late anymore. I need to find myself and quick because i've been losing myself at such a fast pace it's nearly frightening.
just a few months ago I could stay up for forever and had the want to and now 11 rolls around and i'm out out out
where's my energy at?
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